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I already journaled most of my TESL stuff for this week so I am going to blog about... something! Yay!

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It is snowing. Did you know that? I did. Because if it sticks at all, it may ruin my plans tonight. But, so far, the roads look pretty good. I.must.dance! I didn't go last night, because I took a nap and lost all motivation.

I need to study. The problem with a light course load is that there is no fear. The looming panic of last semester forced productivity but now it is like, "who cares? I have like 2* classes." *exaggeration

(subject change) I am so thankful for the honor of worshiping at University Presbyterian Church. I have finally gotten into a little routine there and feel quite at ease. I am learning more and more names, and every new person I encounter is wonderfully friendly. My heart is happy. I just wish Beth were there. So does someone else (who won't shut up about it. ;P)

Today, my routine progressed as usual: wake up before the sun, carpool to Seattle, prepare bagel/cream cheese, warm up, sing 1st service, Starbucks, sing 2nd service... but here the routine ended. You see, usually, I sit through the 2nd service to hear the sermon, but today, the four cups of coffee made a rapid exit quite necessary. So, instead of sitting with my fellow choir members, I ended up in the foyer with the stragglers catching the sermon over the speakers. This situation worked for and against me. I enjoyed my seat, grabbed a(nother) cup of coffee, and relaxed away from public view, but then I noticed the children. Everywhere around me were the cutest kids of varying ages and, predictably, I couldn't keep my eyes off of them. *sigh* You see, for years now I have had a biological, chemical, uncontrollable response to little ones. Friends have referred to it as "quivering ovaries" (sorry, awkward) but I think it is just pre-maternal instinct. :P

So, I caught snipets of the sermon and appreciated the great word brought by the lovely (female-yay!) associate pastor, but mostly my eyes welled up with pure longing. Pretty silly, pretty pathetic, but this is my outlet for honesty so I am just gonna be straight with ya: I wanna be a mommy.

*ahem* changing the subject... I am supposed to be studying right now, but you already know why I am not. I better get motivated or I am going to be in big trouble this semester! my final one! woootz

p.s. I may miss graduating with honors by .004 points on my GPA. I hate French.