I started watching online tv when I came to Japan as a way to deal with culture shock, loneliness, boredom.
It has consumed the better part of my life now. It is an addiction. A very real and powerful one.
I am so caught up in this online entertainment pseudo-life, that I am barely living in the real one.
I am not facing my issues, not facing conflict, not facing the real difficulty and beauty of life here. I am numbing it. Numbing everything.
Reality has become too much to face now. I am afraid to turn it off.
