I am pathetic posting yet ANOTHER blog, but I have no other outlet. I don't know who to call.
My grandpa is dead. I am a wreck. I don't know how to act. I don't know what to do, how to be. I don't know if I would rather be alone, if I would rather go out, if I should sleep, if I should jump in the lake and swim away. I don't know how I am supposed to react, how I want to react.
I hate this. I hate being so far away from home. I hate that I haven't even seen my grandpa in a year, I hate being a complete and utter spazmonger. I want everyone to know I am in pain and to share it, and I want to keep it completely to myself and act like nothing has happened.
Something has happened. I know he is happy now, I know death isn't the end, I know I will see him again someday. But I do.not.care.
Pathetic.
p.s. I am flying home tonight. This will make it easier.
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3 comments:
Seriously, if you need ANYTHING, let me know! How much are tickets back to Idaho?
i love you.
i'm praying for you.
and i wish that i could give you a hug.
Beth, thank you for the ride to the airport. :) I <3 you
Tori, Thank you friend. Your words are very hug-like. :) Also, I can't access your profile. Do you have a blogger blog?
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