I am confused.
Confused by an acquaintance who would bother to "cut me out" when we have exchanged nothing but pleasantries.
Confused by this driving need to be accepted.
Confused by a friend who I care deeply about, who fought for our friendship when I didn't think I could ever look at her again, who I have been through so much with, and who can no longer make time to spend an hour with me.
Confused by how much that hurts.
Confused by this overwhelming wish to start over.
Confused by various completely contradictory desires.
Confused by the very nature of relationships.
Confused by my insensitivity.
Confused by my inability to fall for the One who won't crush me for once, though I see His beauty every day.
Confused by the pain.
Confused by my heart.
Confused by joy.
Confused.
So terribly confused.
About Me
- ReBekha
- From Idaho to Seattle to Okinawa: living, learning, teaching, adventuring!
1 comment:
I can relate to your confusion about not falling for the One who won't crush you...
Sometimes I just feel so distant from Him, even though I see Him working in and around me all the time. :S
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